Thursday, March 1, 2012

Far Away

I have a confession to make, and it's a little off-topic today: I really like hip-hop. And some rap. I love to dance, and sometimes no other music will work. It's fun to boogie with my kids in the living room to some really good music, but unfortunately, most top 40 music leaves out a positive message. And even when the message is neutral, artists and song writers feel the need to add in "explicit deletes" that really ruin the song for me. So! I have discovered, through the help of the child of one of my friends, this Christian rap guy called Lecrae. He combines positive lyrics with a good beat.

Sometimes, as I'm really working through things in my head, I feel alone. I know God is there, but He feels far away. I found these lyrics. It's a great song, filled with emotion and honesty. At one point, he says "hold my hand through this cancer".  Even though I'm not dealing with the sickness, I do see the pain and anxiety of insecurity, or anything that eats at you, as a type of cancer. If I don't deal with it, asking God to truly heal me, then it will continue to chip away at my soul. My mom had cancer and died in 2006, and toward the end of her life she believed that anger, anxiety and stress were contributors to her getting sick. Getting cancer is one of my biggest fears, but allowing anxiety and stress to enter into my life via insecurity that I haven't allowed God to deal with is not doing me any favors. I need to press into close to His presence and allow His grace and mercy to wash over me.

Far Far Away (You feel) Far Away. (You Seem) Far Away.. So So (x2)
I can spell it
I can smell it in the air
Lotta people wonder if you still care
And are you still there
Cuz I dun lost it all
I keep calling your name
But do you hear my call
And are you still involved
Or am I left alone
I wander the streets
Cuz I no longer have a home
My brothers all GONE
My sisters all GONE
My families and my friends aint gonna be here in the Mornin
Ya see me hear mourning
They say you feel my pain
They say you went through it
Say to die is to gain
But I aint gain nothing
I lost everybody
Now Im losing my mind
And my faith is all Im counting
Im still holding on
Thats why Im still pray
Feelin empty inside
I cant make it through today
I dont know what else to do
I dont know what else to say
Im talking to ya now
But I promise you feel so far

Far Far Away (You feel) Far Away. (You Seem) Far Away.. So So (X4)

Dear hope: Been waitin on ya for a while now
Been cut so deep that I aint sure if I can smile now
Look at this devastation
Look at the pain and sorrow
Somebody fed me lies and promised me a bright tomorrow
I know the God I follow
Is bigger than disaster
Big enough to handle
Any evil that harasses us
But I feel like he passed us
Pain overtook us
Buildings tumble over head
As the ground shook us
God have you forsook us
Lord you still with me
I know you save souls
I trust you to forgive me
Relief can you hear me
Hey Rest can you get me
Hey Peace can you see me
Hey love can you heal me
I dont know what to do
I aint looking for answers
I just need you to hold my hand
Through this cancer
Tell me you never left
Even in the midst of death
Breathe on me I'll do anything to feel your Breath

Far Far Away (You feel) Far Away. (You Seem) Far Away.. So So (X4)
(PSALMS 62:5-8)
5. For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
for my hope is from him.
6. He only is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
7. On God rests my salvation and my glory;
my mighty rock, my refuge is God.
8. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us.

(Far far away.) Hes not (Far Away) No hes not (Far Away) Our Gods not 
Even though he seems 

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1 comment:

  1. Great song! I need to download. :)